Okay well can I explain? So you know I have like social anxiety and stuff but I also have depression and body morphic disorder. I stopped taking medicinal for both because I thought I had it under control and stuff. Well I didn’t. So one night I was really depressed and I was hurting myself and I felt ugly and fat and worthless and I needed someone to compliment me and want to see me. So I started snap chatting Alec because I knew he’s done worse stuff and it wouldn’t be a big deal. I had my bra and underwear on the whole time. I actually cried my self asleep because I felt bad. I was so depressed and I hates myself so badly and no one knows but you and I’m crying now. I hate myself and I need people to make me feel pretty or else I do bad things.