And am here again, . .
Morning to evening i just push myself!! I try to get the job done, i try to wave away all the pain having fun and laughing with friends hoping somewhere deep within that it could help me go back to where i started. . Back when i had not known you !! I wish i could erase it all !
What have i done to myself ? I did all what i could do in order to get your attention and i have made myself so vulnerable. I think i made all sorts of wrong decisions. . I keep getting a feeling of having forced my emotions on you and expected the same from you , i imagined things, i lived in an illusion. . All along . . Now i have got myself in a situation where i neither can break it nor can i fix it. . So many things remain unsaid, and so many of them interpreted in a wrong way that i cant redo it all. . I can tell you how makes me feel but i simply cannot make you feel the same. I shouldnt have done this to myself.