have you ever oppened this site like 4 times a day out of boredom and saw there was nothing new on it, and fell obliged to confess something, though you really have NOTHING to say??? Can’t help myself thinking so, when I see, 1st of all, some useless “confessions”, and 2nd of all, when I see myself doing the exat thing im describing. Akh, i feel so bored and so high :/

ok, forget about this stupid introduction. My real confession is:
Even though I promise myself EVRY F****** TIME that im not gonna smoke up anymore, I seem to just be not able to do it. I feel weak. I ged mad everyday at my parents cause whatever I do they’re disappointed in me. And I always fear it’s so unfair, and I really deserv their pride. But f*** it. Look at me now. Red eyes, dark rings under them, a stupid smile. I’m getting skinnier everyday (even though I’m eating like a pig), and the spark that used to live in my eyes, that spark about which everybody talks to me since I’m 8 years old maybe, well that spark is not here anymore. I know I shouldnt be living the life I’m living right now. I Know I’m worth much more. I mean, that’s what everybody keeps saying.
But, here I am today. When I thought I finally graped the answers, I found myself as lost as 5 years ago. I feel like I really lost hope this time. We’re living in a society, in a corrupted society, who keeps on f****** everything up.
You know the quote “If you can’t beat them, join them?” Well that’s what I did. I joined the rank of these failures, of these blind wannabe “humans” (as in living creatures with a conscience, with an abiliti to evolve. hmm hmmm).
I’m officially a failure. And I’m raising my (i don’t know which number to say honestly) of the night to that. Cheers everybody. Hopefully I’ll be dead by next year. Hopelly I’m not gonna see another summer worst than this one. It keeps getting suckier and succkier. Well if I’m gone, it can’t be worse. I mean. It would stop this whole nonesense.