I feel like a failure. I feel like a f****** failure. And I have difficulties controling my behavior. My mother does not offer me a lot of attention, so I feel really unloved. That’s why I like it when a guy offers me his attention. The reason I am writing this confession is not because I have done something stupid, but because I feel ashamed. I feel ashamed of the fact that I start being boring when the guy who used to give me attention, stopped doing that. I am so ashamed of that……. I wish I didn’t behave this way.