So the other day at work there she was. It doesn’t matter to me that she wears dull work clothes, she was stunning. And there she stood working beside her boyfriend. Which s****. For 12 hours. Fucker me that’s a long time to want someone. 5 days a week for 4 months. It has begun to effect my life. This isn’t me. I was utterly and hopelessly in love with my fiance. Until I started this job. I was happy, we had finished wedding plans, just had her 24th b day out of town. I never even looked at another woman. She had all my attention. Day one of my new job I see said woman and boom. My heart literally hurt. I had made a horrible decision to propose. I have experienced something that I don’t think will ever happen again. I firmly believe the universe put me next to this woman and said” this is who you are supposed to be with.” Holy s***. I can’t breathe it’s hard to sleep and my fiance can tell something is up. The fiance says I love you and I am so far away it takes me a second to remember who she is. Why? I suppose I should update this later on. I’m trying to pull myself together and push thoughts away. I’ve already asked to be put on a different shift. I feel a little better about it now.