loneliness has lead me to chat sites, i met some people, jerking off together. I hat my self cause this is the main personal contact i get most of the days. Some days i feel so depressed and alone, i just sit down and j******* with random stranger, begging deep inside for some attention. I have friends, i am away from my family and i m gay. I want a boyfriend, i want to feel that i can have a normal life, finish work and meet my bf home, eat and sit together. My friends are fine, but i feel i am not sharing enough with them. Well maybe i should not overthink all these, but in reality, depression gets me really bad most of the times. I work in a very demanding field and competitive. I want to feel free and happy. i enjoy my work but with out any emotional support i don’t think i can make it. -s