This may be a common thing.. But…

I’m so sick of being alone. Every time I get in a relationship and think I’m happy, and that I’ve found someone worth it, they show me I’m wrong… Their true colours show… I may only be 18 and have all the time in the world to go out and meet people and have my fair share of bad relationships but I don’t. I never get to go out unless I’m working, and I can’t do the whole ‘teen fling’ thing because I have a daughter and don’t want to give her reasons to hate me… My younger sister is happier than me… Prettier than me… Better than me in every way except for smarts… She has guys lining up to be with her and I don’t even have anyone who wants to even be friends… All my friends stopped talking to me when they found out i was pregnant… I just want to be happy for a change, and to find the person that’s worth my time and mine and my daughters love… Someone she can have in her life as a father figure…. And the sad thing is I may never find that..

And because of the fact that I’m not happy and might not ever be, I’m depressed, I don’t have the motivation to do anything… Some days I can’t help but think ‘why was I so stupid to get pregnant’ or what’s left to live for other then raising a child to be another version of me…? I want for her and me to be happy, and maybe we will be as long as we have each other, but what’s happiness if you don’t have someone else to share it with?
Everyone probably looks at me and thinks ‘look at that s***, shes only a teenager and has a child’ why would anyone give me the chance if that’s what they think?