the hardest thing it is to do in life is be yourself. ppl take one look at me and automaticly think they know evrything. Whatever happened to the saying you cant judge a book by its cover?? i feel like i always have to wear this hard tough exterior in order to keep from breaking down. Is it really worth it? maybe id just be better off dead. Now dont get me wrong im not suicidal or anything i just sometimes wonder why continue to fight war you cant win? Sometimes i think back to all the mean and hurtfull thing that has been said and done to me and just cry.Right now i really dont wanna have to go back to school next week because i can see all of problems and tears comming back.