I really ought to find something else to read. Jesus Christ. Just know- people- the only one who can change your situation is yourself. I aim to change mine, do you dare to change yours? For all the suffering I have endured, I was the one who listened. Why is it we are easily turned against ourselves? Is it the energy level? It takes less energy to hate yourself than it does to get up off the floor, but eventually those who are drained will want to be drained no more. They either cross over into hell, or they do something about the situation to keep that from happening. Honestly I read over and over again that “God does not exist.” Tell you the truth- I think people need something wholesome to believe in. Somewhere to turn when things turn hellish. You know I don’t know if there is a God or not. Isn’t seeing… feeling… believing? The rest is existential… faith-based? I don’t know, but I would like to believe you all want to do the right thing. What kind of hell is it where people are intrinsically bad? I implore you to change your situation. Help someone if you can. There are so many badly hurting people out there that need you, and you instead look for help. Sometimes if you open your heart and give it will come back. Sometimes people have this guard up… this defense… this wall. You just need to break it down. Help where you can. Show love. I honestly just get exhausted from what I see. Sure, it doesn’t have to be a rose garden- sickening sweet, but with all the pain and suffering to be had, I think we could take a step in the other direction, all of us. Bless you all. Just take it easy. Have mercy on yourselves and one another once in awhile.