Recently, I was s******* assaulted. A while ago, my (ex) boyfriend beat me up, and even though he was convicted, he and his friends told everyone that it was self defense, and I ran to the cops. Told everyone that I was the abusive one. As a result, a good chunk of the town thinks I’m just this victim crying joke, and nobody will believe me about this, especially since everyone that knows him likes him and I have created a bad reputation for myself. I don’t even know if he knows what he did, but I kept saying no and he kept going. I want to tell someone, but I know that if I told one of the people that would believe me, they’d insist I tell other people or give them a name or something and I know the people that think I’m a victim crier would be like, “Oh, she’s crying wolf again.” I keep crying whenever I’m alone, but act fine when people are around. I don’t know if I can keep pretending I’m okay, but I can’t deal with the judgements if I talk. Going through it with my ex was bad enough.. I can’t do it again. I know it would devastate my family, too, and I can’t let them go through that pain again.