V I hate you. And yet I cannot f****** get over you. WHY ARE YOU SO UNRESPONSIVE? Haan? Why so unmanly? Why do you not act like a good chivalrous man?

Actually f*** this. This is about me. Why do i overreact? WHY?
Why do I get pissed when he does the slightest mistake? Why can I never forgive and forget? Why am I jealous of his ex-love? Why am I jealous of that junior that he tells everything to? Why do I behave like an insecure f*** all the time? He is attracted to me only because I seem so chill. Look at me giving it away. Now he knows I am just another insecure girl. He is gonna use that against me? He makes me feel bad always. Guilty. I act out of character with him

Maybe this is a mistake. I feel so guilty and confused