my mother and father and sister and brother are mentally abusive towards me and have assaulted me and bashed me over the years throwing things at me or attacking me. my mother pushed a babies bottle brush down my throat when i was 7 for swearing and copying the p******** who was abusing me and it made my throat bleed and i have had swallowing phobia and problems ever since. my mum and dad are regularly disinterested in my health and emotional well-being or genuinely helping me find a boyfriend , or keep friends i have made… most of the friends i have made have turned against me and become nasty for no reason, as has relatives like cousins, my brother who is a complete arrogant JERK sarcastic rude, bigheaded knowall smurk s*** head, my sister rose often attacks me throwing shoes, phones, handbags or old roast bones from the oven at me, throwing my clothes out or giving them away to people without my permission to the point i am paranoid …my sister and brother s******* molested me as did my father and great uncle and a cousin who tried to r*** me when i was 7 and he was 16. my father regularly puts his fists up at my face and grits his teeth at me. my parents never believe me when i say i am ill no matter how sick i get with vomiting out side pharmacies even after injects to stop vomiting, or heart palpitations after a car accident. my parents never did much to stop joyce poorter abusing me or to stop the p******** from abusing me. they say they hate ken carey who raped me, and they said they know he was wrong for me but they could have prevented that r*** from even the pedophilia from happening to me…. my family are nasty arrogant people who live in a bitchy nasty cliche sometimes… other times they are half normal but a lot of the time they are CUNTS. i sometimes make out all is fine because i don’t know how else to handle it… if i tell the truth i get sanctioned by them… so its confusing to me. my parents seem to believe me that i was abused and raped and that joyce poorter was an abusive therapist but they just did not help me by protecting me against THE S****** SLAG … MY MOTHER SHOWS NO CARE TOWARDS ME OVER BEING ILL WITH CANCER …OR MISSING OUT OF FRIENDS OR MARRIAGE AND CHILDREN OR BOYFRIENDS AND ALL SHE EVER SAYS IS “WELL NO ONE EVER HELPED ME FIND A MAN” OR “I AM OVER 40 I CANT BE EXPECTED TO THIS OR THAT OR ENTERTAIN PEOPLE AND I DONT WANT PEOPLE COMING HERE TO THE HOUSE … ” OR “I HAD CANCER, WE ARE TOO OLD FOR ALL THIS … WE ARE ONLY WORRIED ABOUT WHAT GOES ON HERE AND WE DONT CARE WHO IS F****** SO LONG AS NO ONE IS F****** HERE AT OUR HOUSE”, .. my brother never wants to talk to me or bring his kids to see our family and him and my sister have accused me of s******* abusing their kids when i have not.

my sister rose regularly screams at me “I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. I DONT CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU I ONLY CARE ABOUT ME AND MY FILIPINO HUSBAND ALLEN, I DONT WANT TO SOCIALIZE WITH YOU OR TALK TO YOU AT ALL. I WONT MOVE FROM HERE TIL MY FILIPINO ALLEN GETS TO AUSTRALIA. I HATE YOU” I CANT LIVE HERE” I AM MOVING TO COOKIES PLACE…(FILIPINO HUSBANDS SISTER)…” she often fights with them and her friends and yet gets man after man after man in her bed… married several times and carries about 4 different mobile phones and has about 3 different names and then other names she goes by like Ella, and other make believe childish fairy tale names… she always wants men and people fussing after her and fights everyone to get to be center of attention all the time.

it feels like a satanic assault on me since i was a child of 5 … satanic ritual abuse, when i was kidnapped and assaulted at the age of 4 and hit in the head with a cricket ball, my sister has ritually abused me from time i was a baby, tipping over my bassinet when my mother left the room or throwing sawdust in my eyes when i was 4 i was blinded for about half a day.

i feel like no one ever takes my side or cares for me. i can’t seem to find a boyfriend no matter what i do. its just sad and lonely all these past 30 or more years. where my sister has pushed yobo and uneducated onto me that don’t fit my personality or age or most of them have been older then me fat bald creepy ugly weird men she set up dates for me with… i felt no s***** attraction to most of them which has made me feel like there is something wrong with me when i never met any fun young men and always was forced to be s***** with old drunk stinking epileptic alcoholic old p******** of 70 years of age or older men who were creepy and dull and have no YES factor about them. one girl set up a date with a guy who was 37 when i was 16 and it felt all wrong, joyce the therapist set up a south american man of 70 to hit onto me for s** just cuz he was rich but he was fat and old and creepy, or black men i have no interest in s*******, i am not racist i just have no romantic interest in black men.

i have always wanted a white educated man when i was at law school and university doing a arts degree i never once met any guy that was right for me, one guy who s******* harassed me was a old bearded bikey who was fat with long hair and boring while i was thin, young and was doing music lessons in like semi-opera music and i have been constantly told i am too ugly for nice young men that their s***** energy would be too much for me and that old men would only find me s******* attractive.

joyce poorter the therapist told me “no man will ever love you til you get down on your hands and knees and bark like a dog” – IS THAT WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET A DATE WITH YOUNG MEN WHO ARE ELIGIBLE?

I AM STILL TRAUMATIZED BY THIS STATEMENT OF HERS TODAY …

THIS IS JUST A SMALL ABOUT OF ABUSE I HAVE GONE THROUGH. I NOW HAVE SKIN CANCER AND OVARY ISSUES AND WAITING TO HAVE SPINAL AND EAR SURGERY… I FEEL LIKE I CAN’T TAKE ANYMORE HURT … AND DESPERATELY NEED A MAN TO BE OF SUPPORT TO ME…

I KEEP WORRYING ABOUT DAVID OAKES (JUSTIN) AND JUST WISH THAT SOMEONE WOULD LISTEN TO ME AND TAKE ME SERIOUSLY.

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