I have really bad social anxiety, every time I see a really attractive girl I get nervous, I feel like every little thing I do or say makes an effect on what she’ll think of me I mean I don’t go out of my way to act cool or be someone I’m not, but I get so nervous that I don’t have the guts to even smile or say hi to her or tell her she looks pretty. I don’t know why, I’ve had girlfriends before, but I want to find a new woman in my life, and I know I’m not going to meet my soulmate, but still I still feel like every little thing I do I’ll get judged for because I’m known as a weirdo kid to all the girls I think are pretty. My social anxiety is what fucks me up when it comes to handling lots of things. I hope some day I’ll be able to power through it and meet a really lovely girl who will love me for how I am.