I can tell my demons are getting angry and I can’t stop them. I don’t want to upset them but these thoughts that I have of ridding them are here and I can’t ignore them anymore. My vision is fading faster day by day now and I’m more vulnerable to them because I’ve been loosing so much energy knowingly to them unbelievably fast. I can tell they are upset. Near me the lights flicker on and off, electronics continuously restart, and I vomit irregularly. I can hear them speaking and telling me to love them again, they way I once did, and it breaks my heart. I don’t want them to go, but that is them speaking. I believe I do want them to go so I can be free. I need to meet with the Kogi mamas in the amazons, they can help me. I’m so torn. I don’t want to lose them. Him. My one favorite demon who I visit in my dreams. Yes, I know exactly what he looks like. I love him. I’m so scared to get rid of him. He has always been there, so why should I go against him. Because I know he is bad for me.. But why? why… I don’t want to give in.. He is like my own, living inside of me. He is a part of me now. I don’t know if I want to change anymore. Please, help me Kogi mamas.