My boyfriend and I have been broken up for almost three months. His parents did not like me because I struggle with anxiety, and they encouraged him to break up with me- they s***. got on an anxiety pill, which he knew I was doing, and im nearly free of those problems now. But you know what, im so confused emotionally. This guy, he mad me feel special, he desired to honor the God who we serve, and I loved being around him. He was my best friend, one of them at least. After a rough visit to his parents where HE was really emotional about things UNRELATED to me, he blamed his instability on me and broke up with me. He accused me of being emotional to friends and family. My pastor recognizes the dishonesty of his words because I was not emotional in our relationship, he was usually the one crying in my arms about stuff. So my pastor helped me deal with things. Anyway, its not fair, the way he spread rumors and broke up with me for no reason. He promised to work through things and not run away over minor set-backs, and that is what he did. He was manipulative in the way he did and led me on for the rest of the time I was at his house even though he was planning on breaking up with me after talking to his parents. We made out and everything. The worse part is, is that regardless of the lies, emotions, and manipulation at the end, I still miss him. I still want him. I love him. It hurts like heck and I love him. I don’t even know what to do. Maybe its so hard because this was my first relationship and I really thought it was the guy God wanted me to be with, but I don’t know. I just miss him like crazy, that is what I do know. :'(