a few years ago i was so envious i seen a group of teens going out to a cafe and just wanted to be like them, never during my teen years had I been invited to be part of a group of friends like that all dressed nicely and well mannered.

young people used to meet up and have fun

I was never allowed to be part of that. so much of my life has been confinement …. never being good enough.

and i still dont know why?