When i think of tomorrow, the next day, the next week, I just don’t know how i will make it. There is so much i have to do and everything is riding on these weeks but i just can’t bring myself to get up. I have known that I’ve had a problem for a long time but I was always just too ashamed to tell people, now it will ruin my future and i still can’t muster up the courage to tell people what is going on, what is wrong with me. I feel like i am drowning and I just want to stop swimming and let go.