I cannot fake my feelings as well as my sister can. I can never personally connect with my sister ever again like i used to 10 years ago because of physical distance. i got tired and really fed up of asking her to stay connected, it’s almost like talking to the queen when i just wanted to talk and spend time with her so much so that i find it so much easier to just give up. maybe i gave up too easily, maybe i have very short tolerance level.

Very often, my parents would call and she would not call back until much later or my parents would message her and not get any reply until a few days later. Maybe she thinks she doesn’t need anyone in the family anymore. this i truly cannot tolerate.

And when she comes over to stay with our parents and me, she practically force herself on all of us. My parents were of course truly delighted to have her but I was boiling with rage the whole 2 nights she was here. she brought her boyfriend too and i truly didn’t care if i appeared rude and miserable to him. After all, why do we care what strangers think of us? Especially strangers who force their unwanted presence on us.