I cheated on my husband for the first time 3 months ago and since then have s** with a guy I work with once a week. Tony is a cute guy and even though his p**** isn’t close to the size of my husbands satifies me in many ways. He is also married and I keep telling myself it has to end. Neither of us have intentions of ending our marriages’ but the s** we have with each other is astounding. His wife and my husband are not into oral s** on a regular basis and I have never had a*** s** with my husband. I know by now that Tony uses me and has me submit to s** acts his wife is unwilling to do. He has bought items such as dildos, vibrators, b*** plugs and just recently bought a speculum. I do give my husband oral s** but he has never c** in my mouth. Tony not only cums in my mouth but as time has passed he has pursuaded me to swallow it. He uses all those s** toys on me and I allow him to use the speculum both vaginally and anally. The things I allow him to do to me are often humiliating but I seem to be aroused the entire time I am with him and o***** more in one night with him than I do with my husband in a week or two. His p**** is small compared to my husband, and I suppose thats the reason I am able to enjoy a*** s** so much. His p**** size also enables me to get all of it in my mouth yet even when we have normal intercouse I am fully satisfied. He gives me oral s** every time I am with him and it is much more satisfying than when my husband does it. He kneels on the floor and has my pelvis on the edge of the bed. He not only licks my v***** but also licks my a*** and drives me crazy with pleasure. Tony controls our every s** act and although I feel like I am being used, I always comply with his wishes. Things unnatural at times but he always has me aroused and satisfies me beyound belief. I don’t like it when he uses the speculum on me but never complain, knowing how it arouses him so much to do those things. My husband has never come close to stimulating me or satisfying me as much as Tony does. I don’t see him often in work and I doubt any of my co-workers suspect anything. The worst thing is I really love my husband. Tony, I don’t love, but I have never been so s******* satisfyed with any guy I have ever had s** with. That includes four guys I had s** with before I got married. I have done s***** things and allowed Tony to do things to me that I have never thought about. He has seen and probed my body in so many more ways and positions than even my husband has. At times when I think about it, I feel embarrassed at the things I let him do to me or have me do to him. I have administered the s** toys on him whenever he wants me to. He has me use the d**** and v******* to penitrate him as I give him oral s** or m********* him. I to see him in ways his wife never does. I doubt if my husband has ever thought of these things to do to each other. My husband and I do have s** in different positions and do give oral s** to each other. What we don’t do is to see each others body parts the way Tony and I do with each other. I have rarely seen my husbands a*** and likewise he seldom sees mine. My husband has never penitrated my a*** in anyway and has never licked it while performing oral s**. It is shameful what I am doing and more so how I accept the things Tony does to my body. I can’t help the way I respond to his touch no matter how bizzare. Not often, but we spread whipped cream on each others g******* and lick it off each other, another thing I have never done with my husband. There are so many experiences I have had with Tony in such a short period of time. I find myself thinking about him when I have s** with my husband. My husband is such a good guy I don’t deserve him. He is so good to me I keep telling myself I will end all this with Tony. Yet evey week when Tony calls I meet him at the motel. It goes on for three or four hours every week and I have o***** after o***** and then more. What I let him do to me and what he has me do to him is disgaceful, yet I keep seeing him every week. I am ashamed but can never let my husband find out about this and hope I will get the courage to stop seeing Tony one of these days.