As I’m listening to India Arie’s Ready for Love, (one of my absolute favorite songs because of its raw and unabashed honesty), tears formed in my eyes as I realized that my time for love has not come yet. Yes, it’s taking longer than usual – maybe it won’t even happen in this lifetime and I’ll make peace with that. But I realized that when my time for pure, absolute and unconditional love comes, it will be explosive. We won’t need to second-guess each other, manipulate each other, distrust each other or struggle with our feelings towards each other. There will be chemistry from the beginning and it will good. Deep down we’ll both know where we belong and why we are here. I just have to overcome a few more hurdles, do a little more self-reflection and break a little more (hopefully not too badly). I won’t have to jump through hoops or have so many bottom low moments where I’m reminded of how undesirable and imperfect I am. I was settling.