i have no self esteem and can’t take a joke. i try so hard to please everyone but i always get shot down. i don’t really think anyone will ever be able to love me, how could they? i don’t even love myself. i hate that i can’t trust anyone because i’m afraid they will laugh at me or, find out what i really am and hate me. i always feel like i’m not good enough and that everyone is looking at me. even when i accomplish anything and begin to feel good about myself the slightest setback shoots me down. i can’t have meaningful relationships because i’m afraid to screw up and get hurt. i also have no emotion when it comes to others, when my grandfather died i didn’t even feel sad. what’s wrong with me? how can i get over this?