In all my life my greatest hope was to be beautiful on my wedding day…but instead, I was the fattest I have ever been. I feel so pathetic and angry at myself. And what do I do to feel better? Big a** sundae. I feel disgusting and I hate myself but I’m too stupid or lazy or something to lose weight. Just shoot me. Its my fault. And I can’t change the past. Will I ever change my future?
