I’m trying so hard to be okay, and for a few weeks I’ll do really well. But then it all comes crashing down again and I can’t let it show. I’m a captain for a school organization and anytime I let any weakness show, everyone gets angry at me. I’m a leader. I’m supposed to be perfect, right? Well, I’m not. Most girls cry to feel better, but I ran out of tears a very long time ago. I don’t cry. I just get headaches and I start thinking about some pretty scary stuff. I’m afraid to come out and let people know how bad I am because I don’t want to lose people. I also don’t want to let anyone down. I used to cut myself, and I’m still in the process of quitting. But I feel myself getting weak again and I’m trying so hard not to be like that. I want to be able to be normal and not feel like this. You would never be able to tell that I have problems unless I tell you. I fake it so well, but sometimes I want to be able to cry and I want someone to just hold me and let me cry. I want to get through this but I feel like I can’t do it alone. However, I also feel like I have no other choice than to do it alone. I’m lost.