I have a demon inside of me. He has been with me for as long as I can remember. I see him every night dreaming or not he is there lurking in the background. He is tall, hunched, lanky, and a deep blue color with teeth that can’t be hidden because he doesn’t have lips. His eyes are sort of on the side of his head but large so they are also in the front. Almost like rabbit eyes except.. large and one color.

He doesn’t like verbal communication very much, or he is not good at it. But he is an excellent shape shifter. I feel he might be my guardian, but at the same time I don’t know if he is just tricking me.. In my dreams he doesn’t do much, he is fast and watchful and follows me in my dreams like a hunter who never attacks.

He has killed my family, eaten my friends, and done nothing but protect me. He always keeps his distance and has only spoken to me once. It was the closest we have ever stood and I will never forget what he said, “I am always watching.” Right after he said that I woke up. The way he stays with me, follows me, watches and protects me, make me think that he is my guardian. But he looks VERY far from what i’d expect a guardian to look like.

I’ll admit.. I played around with things that I probably shouldn’t have as a child. I looked into black magic, sorcery, and summoning. I signed my life over in my own blood for protection to Satan.. I feel this is my guardian now. I’m not too sure what will happen in the end, but I feel I may have already lost this life’s will as my own.