I have a very very.. bad confession to share tonight. I have a secret that no one knows about. I am having an affair with a married man. I’ve heard about this happening and yet I never thought I’d be one to make my own story about it. I’m not even going to try to defend myself in this post, I’m just going to tell you the nitty gritty. He’s married, and I’ve been in my relationship for 15 years. We’ve been having this affair for like 4 years now. We sneak out and f*** in parking lots, hotels, in the backseat, anywhere we won’t get caught. He originally said ‘no feelings, were just here to f***’ and now he’s the one catching feels wanting to get me pregnant so we can really be together. He has money, I have money. We both have status, would be a great team and make beautiful babies. But I have my ego, and an image to uphold. If my secret were to get out, I’d.. I’d lose face. I’m the perfect example of a perfect citizen. Successful, beautiful, kind, generous, owning multiple businesses and properties. If this were to get out… I don’t know. I’d be in a lot of s***. Somedays I think, should I break this affair off, but he already has so much evidence against me. We’ve made films, and shared photos. And I know he’s not one who give up easily. I’m starting to consider having a child, because I need someone to pass everything that I’ve worked for down to. Now the struggle is, do I continue with my current relationship and have a child with the secure less successful long term partner. Or do I pursue a possibly bigger future with the unsure new option. I could lose it all with the second option, and yet it could also be so much better. I’m actually so selfish, why can’t I just have both.
