I drowned myself so a hot Life Gaurd would hold me. So this happened when I was 10 I think. I could always swim and I went to vacation with friends

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I drowned myself so a hot Life Gaurd would hold me.

So this happened when I was 10 I think. I could always swim and I went to vacation with friends family.

I went beach and saw this hot life gaurd. I’d never felt so enamored by another man before. I wanted him to hold me. I tried talking to him but he was distant and focused.

(Which makes sense considered i was a f****** 10 year old and he was doing a life saving job)

However even then, he was sweet and patient and I remember he said he liked anime and that was all I needed. I think he was maybe 17.

He was also very warm despite his focus. I could tell in a normal conversation he was probably even more so. I never had a problem flirting with girls. It was so easy it was boring even at 10. It wouldn’t be anything weird but I like your hair we should go watch the new transformers, stuff like that. But he felt so untouchable it made me want to try harder.

So I kept thinking of ways to get his attention and I decided to drown myself. Not as a joke though. I went underwater and took a breath. It felt so bad and I was panicking so much I end up flailing like I was really drowning.

Which I guess I was.

So it’s really painful, salt water in my eyes and my lungs and I feel like throwing up and I’m forgetting how to swim or stay boyant. It only lasted for maybe 15 seconds.

Eventually I was rescued. Not by the guy but by some teenage girl really close by. She was like 16 and apparently the only one that noticed something was wrong. My friend said I was lucky I got saved and got cpr or whatever about her being hot but I was so disappointed.

I am and was attracted to women but that was not what I wanted. I was disappointed. And drowning hurt so much. I asked my friend not to tell his parents. (He knew about the plan)

Idk I don’t really feel guilty I feel annoyed that I know what drowning feels like. But I do feel guilty that I could have been saved while someone who was really drowning needed help.

Also the parents are not at fault they’ve watched me swim laps around them and I purposely went within the 5 minutes they went to get us snacks. My friends older sister was watching us and I purposely went where she couldn’t watch me and her brother at the same time.

Luckily the lady that saved me took me to her umbrella thing so his sister couldn’t see.

I barfed up water and could have died from infection but I got lucky I guess since I didn’t tell anyone so I wouldn’t get in trouble. I’m told it helps it was salt water tho.

New Confession

Last night my parents had a dinner party for some of their friends. Usually they are lame and I do something to get out of the house. I was out with friends and when I got home I was surprised how many people were still here. I said hello to everyone and went upstairs to my room. About 10 minutes later one of my parents friends came into my room. I’ve known him and his wife since as long as I can remember but was still very surprised when he just walked into my room. He was drunk and rambling and I was just being the polite girl I always am when he grabbed my arm which surprised me. He pulled me down to the floor and unzipped his pants before I like even realized what was going on. Then I saw it. He was bigger than anyone I’ve ever seen. He was uncut which I’ve only seen one other time and he was really hairy. I went from being scared to turned on and when he put his hand on my head he didn’t have to do much. I took him in my mouth and he grew. Like the biggest guy I’ve ever been with by a lot. He started talking dirty calling me names and it just made me hotter. He finished in my mouth and it was like a gallon. I had to swallow like five or six times to get it all. I was looking up at him sort of in shock when he slapped my face with it and told me I did a good job. Then he zipped up and walked out. I went downstairs like a half hour later and people were leaving including him. His wife hugged me as they were leaving. I could literally still taste her husband in my mouth as his wife hugged me. I just woke up this morning and it’s all I can think about.

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Dear old man,

I cannot tell you what you did to me and how you broke your word to my mother in her last days of her life. You, sir, are a real insult in my presence and what you did you left me hanging to dry without paying a dime to me. I am angry, hurt and disappointed to you and your actions led you to be greedy and not doing what you promised to me. Mom would be angry and sorely disappointed in you. You have brought shame to me and my family. I don’t know if I will forgive you for what you did and sometimes in the near future you are going to make your amends with me and set things right. You won’t hear from me anytime soon and unless you make things right with me don’t bother calling me. That’s all I have to say to you, you thief!