I’m so broken that I can’t just let go of someone who has caused me so much heartache because they have been my rock for years. I want to let go and forget they exist but it’s so much harder emotionally than people think. I feel like s*** about keeping them around but they bring me back to life so often. Idk that I would actually be okay if they stopped existing in my life. Idk if I would be alive. I have so many issues.