I have r*** fantasies. I still have normal “vanilla” fantasies but I also have a lot of r*** on my mind. And not the “wholesome” kind, the rapists (often plural) sometimes aren’t human and in such cases, in the real world, the woman wouldn’t even survive the insertion. I’ve been searching for the past hour and haven’t been able to find out how normal this is. The fact that I can find plenty of p*** fitting the description means there must be somebody else out there sick like me but… Context time, I’m a die hard fan of the Japanese singer, Kikkawa you, she has been my shepard through dark times for about 5 years now. One night my brain just slipped it in, her being raped, a lot. I tried to not like it but it just didn’t work. Now I have to fight the thought off constantly, Kikka raped by a bunch of guys, Kikka raped by monsters, Kikka impregnated against her will. I exposed her to my dark half and I can’t go back. I used to want to meet her but now I just don’t think a monster like me deserves to. If I could I’d cut those thoughts out of my brain and the place they come from. If that meant I could never enjoy s** again, so be it! I don’t care anymore! I want them gone!!