I don’t understand why this won’t go away. I tried forgetting, forgiving, resenting, ignoring, blocking but NO MATTER WHAT I F****** DO, there you are. My brain chemistry must’ve gotten fucked up. Why do I want to talk to you or hear from you and have this obsession be reciprocated? Why do I want anything with you…at all?? You are a thorn. I am a raging idiot. This should have gone away in 2021. 2022 at least. It should never have begun BUT WHY WON’T IT GO AWAY??