Somedays I wish I was single to live out the crazy younger years. I was taken a little after highschool and haven’t changed lovers sense then. We’ve been together for about 5 years now and i’m about to turn 23. I’m content with how we are with each other, we’ve become nearly inseparable and literally(Yes, literally.) read each others minds. I would never cheat or do anything to hurt him, but sometimes I do wish I could have stayed single in these younger years to just do things that I won’t be able to do when i’m older. S***** things, wild and weird things. I can do this with my boyfriend but.. he can’t shape shift into different races and physiques and people. I wanted to be with different people, with different kinks. I wanted to try a group thing at least once(No, I already asked.). I wanted to be with an older gentleman once. And then t****** with someone with a ‘toy’ fetish.

I am attractive, I stay fit and take care of myself appearance wise. I feel like I COULD accomplish all of those things. But then again, is this all for the better?
I mean sure I have not been with many people, but maybe it should just stay that way.
I’m not racking up points, just experiences. But I guess s***** encounters are not the best thing to want to .. experiment experiences with.

In order for me to be able to do these things, i’d have to leave my current bf. And giving up all of what we have for a bit of bed fun is not going to happen. These things would only occur if he were to leave me. If I were ever out, alone, and presented with the chance, i’m nervous about what would happen. (I am never left alone in public, I can’t remember the last time I went anywhere without a watch dog. (Him or his friend.) No, i’m true to him. I wish I didn’t have these daydreams in the first place.