Why is it that everyone else can have issues but me? If they have problems I’m expected to listen and if I have problems, I’m doing nothing but causing unnecessary drama by trying to talk about them.

Ha. If only they knew what I keep holding back.

I self-harm. I’ve been doing it for years and I’d stopped for a really long time… until this past year, when my so-called “friends” decided to start telling me how awful of a friend I was. This makes me feel awful and useless, so I self-harm. I’d gone years without doing this and now I’m doing it a few times a month and just keep increasing the frequency each time I talk to these people. They make it seem like I can’t do anything right, but then when I try to offer that we don’t hang out as much since I’m obviously nothing but trouble, they try to make me feel bad about suggesting that.

So my goal is to eventually get rid of my toxic friends and let them stew in their own juices. The good friends I still have are pretty appalled by how I’m being treated, which makes me feel so damn good because it keeps me from feeling that everything is my fault. Now to just get my stuff back and then stay away from the bad people.