An ex of mine died almost eight years ago now, I didn’t even find out until five years after it’d happened because we had lost touch. I only learned of it because I was going to be moving back home and was scouring the internet to try finding an email or facebook or any way I could get in touch with him to catch up and hang out when I’d returned home. Then I found his obituary, and my world has been broken since that moment.
It created a huge hole in me, I feel like a big part of me is dead and gone with him. Even after we split up we were very close friends for a few years, he was an amazing person who shaped a lot of who I grew up to be. I can’t listen to so much music I like because all I can think about is him. I’m married now and very happy, the ex and I never would have worked… but I still love him and miss him beyond words. My heart aches every day as I’m reminded of him by so many little things.
There’s an unfinished chapter in my life and I don’t know how to move on and cope with the fact that he’s gone forever. I wish I could talk to him just once more, so many things I wish I could say. The world is a less bright place without his beautiful soul here anymore. RIP Jon, you’ve been gone almost eight years… you are still and will be always very dearly missed.