I am 19. I have no friends anymore..a few still live right down the road, but they never want to hang out. It’s like they have abandoned me. 99% of the people I hang out with are my boyfriends friends, and that’s only when I am with him. I only have 2 friends that I can hang out with, they are a couple and I have babysat their kids for 5 years, but now they are close to splitting up, and I am worried that I will lose one or the other. It sounds bad, but I know which one I would choose if I had too, but I don’t want to choose. I want things to stay the same. I don’t like change, it scares me. Every time something changes I lose someone/something I love. I have built my wall with everything that has been thrown at me, but some people slip right by it, and it always ends up hurting me. I have trust issues to begin with, considering I was mentally abused by my father for years, but it just keeps getting worse. Why can’t I find good people to hang out with? People that actually care about how I feel, not just about what they can use me for…..