Mom, i am not the right person to come to if you want to vent about your trauma. I am your daughter. And of course telling me about it once in a while is okay, i am 17 after all but telling me about if every day, over and over again, with way too many aspects, is not okay. Search for someone else. Or go to therapy. I even told you this indirectly. If you truly think that your diziness comes from your depression, go see a therapist. I know you hate them but you need one even if you just use him to vent. Also, saying ALL THERAPISTS ARE S*** BECAUSE ALL OF THEM JUST GIVE YOU A DEPRESSION DIAGNOSIS AFTER 5 MINUTES when you go there with active depression is like going to a hospital woth chest pains and shortness of breath and saying ALL DOCTORS ARE S*** ALL THEY DO IS DIAGNOSE YOU WITH HEART ATTACKS. They diagnose you so quick because you show active symptoms they do not NEED to look longer. Also, people who go to therapy are people who are in pain and need help. This pain is, in most cases, depression. Mostly resulting from other things, but it is depression. People who suffer from other things but still find happiness in life, those people are not gonna go see a therapist. To come backt to my heart attack explanation: Yes, most people get diagnosed with heart attacks if they go to the ER because most people go to the ER because of heart attacks. People who get a real bad stomach flu or head aches don’t go to the ER.
…This is what i would propably tell you if i didn’t know you would scream at me if i told you, did not let me finish my sentence and would propably cause me to kill myself the same night.