Two weeks after my friend from another school committed suicide, a boy from my school did the same. I didn’t know him, but so many of my friends did. And they all asked me the same question “How do you deal with it? How do you go on?”

I need them to tell me. The mention of her name brings me to tears and seeing a picture of her makes me hear my dad “Claire committed suicide” over and over again. At rehearsal tonight we practiced a song we last sang when she was with us. Two of us began crying and had to leave. A manager kept telling us we’re strong, we have people there for us.

Where were we for her? Why weren’t we there for her?

I miss you so much Claire. And I’m so sorry.