There’s nothing on earth worth your freedom. No crime . no drug . no booze . nothing is. Its not worth being a slave to addiction. Or being sent back to jail. I hope you will look into rehab or AA. both can help. If you’re open to the possibility of kicking the s*** of addiction. Becoming free again . there was a time in your life you had hope and clarity of mind. I hope you’ll find it again. it isn’t too late for you.