I just received a phone call from someone I know who is not really a friend and not really an enemy. He’s the friendemy. He’s hopping on a bus and heading my way, and he has to ask if I’m going to kill and or hurt him when he shows up. And with the way he left my boyfriend and I, I really should.
The person I am now doesn’t want to give in to the person I used to be. This is a real struggle for me because as much a I’d like to rip his eyelids off and pour lemons in his eyes as he sleeps, I know that I shouldn’t.. because I know I should be forgiving.
He is not an ex-lover or anything of the sort. He’s a close friend that we trusted. It’s been nearly fours years sense he left and betrayed us, and this will be the first time seeing him again.
His bus arrives after I get off work while my boyfriend is still at work. He’s afraid to see me alone because my boyfriend won’t be around to protect him. He thinks i’m going to call my dogs on him and put him in the trunk when i’m through. Hah! Well I hope he keeps that mind set. Because if he steps out of line again, my patience will be run just a bit too thin.
He has a weakness, a weakness that leaves him defenseless to anyone who finds it out.
Gosh how I love finding out these things actually exist in some people~
The sweetest part of it all is, he thinks i’m “really f****** intimidating.” Too cute.
Thinking about all of this makes me really want to go back to the way I was, but I have to remember to stay positive, be good, hurting people for revenge is bad, be polite, and keep your evil little thoughts to yourself.. mostly.