My depression’s acting up. I can feel it. I was going so well, for so long… I thought I was winning. I was loving myself and other people more than I ever had. I had more friends than ever. But I think I tried to focus on fixing too many parts of my life and it all ended up falling back to pieces again. I had s** with a guy. I lied about my age to this guy. I hate myself for having s** with that guy. I’m going back to have s** with that guy because I hate myself. The guy I really like, doesn’t care about me. He already has another girlfriend. I’m s*** at my job. No one likes me at my job. I have finals. Which I know I’m gonna fail because I’m terrible at piano. I’m too young to have so many problems. Why am I so fucked up? I swear, I try to be a good person. I can’t do anything right. No matter what. I just don’t want to be around this. The one person I want to be around, doesn’t care. They don’t ever talk to me, unless I say something to them. I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to be here.