I miss the man I had called mine for so long. But I am happy he’s happy at the same time. I am jelouse of the new girl though. She is so perfect and is great for him. I feel as if I wasn’t ever good enough. I’m full of a pain that never goes away no mater how hard I try. I keep getting lied to and keep having my feelings messed with. I don’t know how this will stop. I miss talking to someone all day. Having someone to be there for me when I need him, someone who’s constantly telling me how beautiful I am or how much he loves me. Saying sweet things, acting interested in my life. And just I miss that But most of all I miss knowing that someone cares enough for me that they’d do anything for me. I don’t want to only be the person people go to. I want to have someone be there for me once in a while. Someone who is not going to judge me for me. Someone who will love and cherish everything and the young woman I am. I just miss this. I feel as though it is very self centered. I am trying to look past that for now. I want to be loved again. To be appreciated. I want a sign that the pain and grief I am feeling will go away. I want a sign.
