Lately I've been really not ok. I've had an eating disorder for six years but recently it's gotten a lot worse. It's starting to make me sick. I get

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Lately I’ve been really not ok. I’ve had an eating disorder for six years but recently it’s gotten a lot worse. It’s starting to make me sick. I get bruises and I’m dizzy and cold. I really like to cut, it makes me feel in control. I’m not stupid but I’m doing really badly in school. I don’t like my friends. I don’t like anyone. This sadness pulls me into myself. I’m losing my mind. Everyone expected me to be spectacular. To date, the only thing I do better than everyone else is be sick. I am spectacular at starving, puking, playing a game of chicken with death. It’s a fucked up kind of pride. I love it when my heart skips and beats out of time. Every time I secretly hope it’ll just stop. No one knows its gone this far. I don’t think I’m going to get better this time.

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