i have had an eating disorder for a very long time, and keep blaming my dramatic weight loss on sickness. i am in love equally with two guys who mean the world to me. i tried to kill myself recently and got admitted into the psych ward in hospital.. both of the guys i love came to visit me. i am 15 and i am not a virgin. i lie constantly, now i’m at the point where i don’t know what’s real in my life anymore. three days after we broke up, my ex met up with his ex girlfriend before me and had s** with her, then told me about it. i wanted to kill him. i got drunk and kissed a guy who was 7 years older than me.. while i was in a relationship. i tend to gravitate towards people who are dangerous. my life is a mess.. and it’s all because of me.