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was blocked on my cousins facebook who f*** and date the rich and famous and i told my psychologist i didn’t want to beg them to part of there special f****** club… i was not pretty enough to be fucked by anyone or for them to invite me to parties to help find me a nice guy, i live on the dole and then disability pension while they f*** the rich and famous, they did the same thing to my mum and dad. they like to make you beg for a f*** or love and beg for a job and love creating jealousies and s*** dog women ready for c**tting …

THANKYOU LOUISE DOONAN AND ELIZABETH CHRISTOFELL… FOR ABUSING MY FATHERS RADIO REPUTATION TO GET HEAPS OF YOUNG C**** UP YOUR C*** B******!

BUT I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEIR SPECIAL F*** CLUB.

I LIVE WITH MUM AND DAD AND WE HAVE NO FRIENDS AT ALL. I JUST F*** THE VACUUM CLEANER ITS THE ONLY THING THAT DOES NOT REJECT MY C*** AND UGLY FACE.

cried a few years ago when i seen my ex-brother in-law with his new Asian wife when they sent me emails on Facebook so i blocked them because it was too painful to see them happy while i still had no one. then i blocked all my relatives because i had no man. i couldn’t take the embarrassment of rejection in front of relatives anymore so i got rid of my relatives because they caused all my s***** problems. and i am not allowed to talk about it. my mum and dad have s*** by me and understand my embarrassment and pain.

I am over 40 and still live at home with mum and dad and can not find a boyfriend everyone tells me i am ugly and not good enough. I can’t get s** anywhere and did consider asking my brother in law once to take my virginity when i was 23 cuz i could not find any man to love me he has since found a woman to marry and never showed any real interest in anyway. I did consider s** with my brother or 2 male cousins as well as whenever i tried with men they pushed me away. then my cousin who tried to r*** me when i was a child rejected me so i kind of got the message.

my mum is going away soon and i have wondered should i ask my dad for s** while she is away, but he is old now and i don’t love him the way i used to when we were both younger, like when i was a child, but in truth i never felt s***** love for my dad as such…i wanted other older boys then me to play the part of a doe-ting father i could go to who would support me when my sister was trying to r*** me and bash me.

i am afraid to be alone with my father but also of the ghosts in our haunted house.

i have tried to attract men but without any luck even when i was super thin and super pretty.

does bigoldsoapbox have any ideas??

i am sad, tired from serious illness i can’t talk about with anyone, i feel strange that i want hugs and love and sometimes lots of s***** experiences but then other times i bleed badly in the v***** after m*********** and am scared of s** incase i have damaged my v***** too much insertions with objects.

i just don’t know how to get love or s**. men tell me i am no good at all for either. i consider going out for one night stand s** to get pregnant with just any man. and i think if i got really drunk and just found a guy he might do it, but knowing my luck he would kick me off him and leave me in the gutter to rot in the rain.

i want a normal relationship but i don’t know how to get it. everyone tells me i am an ugly dog and not good enough and i always end up believing them as there has been way too many people to confirm it as a truth that i am too ugly to attract love of any kind.

i have been told to go out and where a muzzle on my face and no pants and try to flash my bare b*** in the street for any man who is willing right then and there as that is how most men like it with ugly dogs like me.

should i do this just for the experience and thrill to skite about later as i have no real s** experiences to skite about ever.

i want to have s** in public to show people even though i am fat old and ugly i can f*** as good as any super model or my neighbors who think they are so great at f****** load.

what should i do to get a f*** ?? i have been told that a begger can’t be a chooser in s** and it all has to be dirty c*** talk and acts with guys before it gets better.

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