This is more like jealousy/confession I believe even though I hate to admit that.
But get to the point and comment if you could relate all the way or just a bit.
I assume you have read or did not read my recent one about having a relationship with my former band teacher that is 58 and I am 17. I can’t help but feel this deep hate and envy anybody who could possibly ruin our relationship. For example there is always these two girls that like to talk to him a lot to the point that it looked like flirting. All of a sudden I am filled up with this deep hate and envy for them that they automatically end up in my hate list. I know I know! He should have some friends and people that he also could be around with and enjoy other than me which scares me a lot not joke and his happiness means everything to me but I still can’t help but stress out about this kind of stuff and other things that relate to this. I sound obsessive right now to but I just can’t help it! 🙁