my ‘anorexia’ is kicking in hard (i’m sub-clinical, mind), i found myself in the middle of my bedroom floor after uni trying to make myself sick. i ended up crying and i’m still crying now. i don’t want this ‘fat’ feeling to take over my life 🙁 i’m not even fat, why am i so obsessed with losing more weight?! the thought of putting on weight scares me SO much – but i know how to keep a steady diet, i’m active… i just feel so so s*** about myself. and nobody knows. I FEEL SO FAT. I’M SO STUPID. I’M ANNOYING. sorry i need to get this out