Plans didn’t work out I guess. We talked about it all week and now they’ve changed. So I’m going to stay home while he goes out with his family. I can’t help feeling.. rejected? unwanted? I don’t know what this feeling is but I’m sad. I’m sure my obese a** would have just embarrassed my boyfriend any way. I spent $100 getting my nails done and just as much on new clothes so I’d look nice but that’s fine. We never do anything fun together but that’s fine. I was looking forward to this weekend but that’s fine. I’m ashamed of myself, too.