My name is violet. I’m 13. I was forced 2 mature at a very young age. I live in new york. If ur in the east greenbush area please comment ur discord. I want 2 run away from home. My parents r very mentally abusive. My dad has threatened 2 hurt me. There’s constantly fighting n screamng going on. I’ve had a chair thrown at me ffs. My dad compares me 2 my brother. He’s referred 2 him as an angel n me as a devil. He said he’s his favorite. He called my useless. These were his exact words. I have issues w/ self harm n have been considering relapsing. I have no internet access other than a ps4 n I have no idea how I could run away from home without a phone. I have lost many ppl that meant so much 2 me. The ppl keeping me alive. I’ve been getting in trouble due 2 bad habits involving being hypersexual n my parents see this as me being a rebel n going through my “rebel teenage phase”. I hate wanting 2 run away bc i know other ppl have it way worse than me n I feel like i’m taking the p**** way out. My dad compares me 2 skinny blonde girls like on p****** covers. He comments abt all my insecurities, like my teeth. I can’t even shower or brush my teeth n it’s not that i don’t want 2 take care of myself it’s just that I can’t. My parents always bring me down abt myself. I can’t even smile around them without them saying something abt my teeth. I would probably have no insecurities if it wasn’t 4 them. I want 2 be happy. I want 2 run away n live the life i always wanted. Be who I always wanted 2 be. I don’t wanna have 2 restrain myself n feel like everything i say i’ll be yelled at 4. I’ve been a lot more resistent when it comes 2 communicating. I am constantly bullied at school as well n at this rate i may commit suicide if i’m not out of here soon. Please if u can do something i need the help. Comment ur discord or insta i need some1. Hopefully some1 in the area 2 like travel w/ n run away w/.