Hi. This is a rant so feel free to skip it if you want. I just needed to express my feeling, thank you. I’m a 17 year old and I want to start smoking weed. I tried it once with my mum and I really liked it. I see a lot of other people my age smoking and doing stuff and I really want to experience and love my teenage years. I haven’t got to do anything exciting or risk taking because I fear my dad. And I know I could probably just ask him “Hey I want to start smoking weed” but he would probably be like “why the f*** would you want to do that for?” Even though when he was a teenager he was a party hard type of dude who smoked weed and experienced other drugs. I feel like he would also look so negative on it because my mother is a drug addict and he probably doesn’t want me to turn out like her and I don’t either. It makes me sad and mad when she does drugs and yet I want to try some weed and vaping?! Like I have money there and I so want to order a vape and some weed or edibles but what will I do if I get caught!!? I don’t know if I’m just trying to “fit in” with the other kids by doing this or not or of this is something I really want to do. I feel like there’s such a high rep for me. I’m the first child, I’m supposed to be the “perfect one” and I have been? I have never done drugs, gone to parties and I’ve only tried alcohol since I’ve been 17 so I think I’ve done pretty good compared to some of the other kids in my town. Idk I just want to live out my teenage years before they come to an end. Experience another side of life. I just hope I’m not looked down upon on.