i have no idea what category to put this in. but i haven’t gotten to that level with my therapist so i’m writing this here because i had no idea this website existed.

i’m in high school, going into 10th grade. i am a lesbian in a very conservative small town, so i haven’t dated anyone my entire life. meanwhile, my friends, who support me and are all (surprisingly) part of the LGBTQ+ community, have dated multiple people. i’m very focused on school and am planning to go to college. growing up, i didn’t have many friends and the “friends” that i did have were horrible and incredibly toxic. moving to my small town, and having many friends definitely conflicted my “schedule” and it was a huge change in my life that i am still getting used to. recently, i have been really craving a partner. my friends are always telling me ‘oh you could get a partner if you wanted’ ‘you got people lined up for you’ ‘anyone would date you’ like..if they are, then why the f*** do they not show it? every single person i have ever liked, never likes me back, and even if they were, i’m too much of a p**** to actually get a date. i’m so terrified to love, and ruin my school because if i ruin my school, i wont be able to graduate, and if i don’t graduate, i’m just gonna be another person in my family that didn’t pass high school.