Am I doomed to fail? Am I a failure? I know that I’m not trying hard enough, I can’t be that person who can be compared to anybody. Literally hearing Consume by Chase Atlantic triggered my tears to f****** come out. I know I’m being dramatic. I love gaslighting myself saying that I don’t need help, don’t cry because it’s your fault. No, I’m not crying right now. I really hope I can be numb but in fact I still can feel, I don’t like it.