Lately I’ve been wanting to die. Not necessarily suicide but its leaning that way. My husband isn’t attracted to me and hasn’t been for a long time. Not just physical. If I say anything or try to Express myself in any way it feels like I’m ignored. During the pandemic I took my kids out of school and we homeschool. Sometimes I feel as though I am failing them. We have no vehicle atm and I walk to work. I work at a local grocery store. It doesn’t pay much. I feel like a failure in all aspects of life.i dont think it ever gets better. Life. I’ve lost most of my teeth and cant do anything about it. So in short I’m ugly and poor. What a great combo. At least when I die I wont be any of these things. I wont feel. I wont want.